The older I get (30 is half a month away!!) the more I realize that being present is one of the hardest things to actually practice.
We’re always looking forward to the next thing, right? I was talking about that with a friend today - shout-out to my dear Alex - how life seems to be speeding by because I’m just living it 2 weeks / a month into the future, always looking forward to something I have down the line.
And if I’m being really honest with myself, I think I’ve lived in a constant state of near burn out, looking forward to the next thing, sort of abandoning my own current needs, for like my entire 20s.
There is no arrival point. It’s all a sham!
What we’re all really searching for is to be present & to be content where we are!
With what we have.
With life the way it is.
Or maybe that’s just me. When will it be enough??
When will I be enough?
I think when Jesus says, “come to me all you who are weary and heavy burdened…” he meant it.
We have to come to him.
He is the only one who can give us true, satisfying, soul fulfilling REST!!
He tells us himself, “I will give you rest.”
Self-care isn’t bubble baths 🛀 and facials and vacations. It’s not spending too much money on clothes, splurging on a fancy dinner out or a beach day.
It’s building a life for yourself that you’re not constantly needing a break from.
It’s building the rest and the breaks in.
I have found my identity in what I do for a long time. And I don’t mean my job/ vocation, I mean, in how productive I am.
And that is in every aspect of my life.
I feel accomplished when I get things done, when I check things off my to do list, finish the laundry, do those 10 errands, get my workout in, make 20 calls in a row for work.
But what about on the days where I just don’t have the energy or the capacity to be that Elsa?
Who ever taught me I always had to be “on?”
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