I feel like a fish out of water.
Funny I even write that, because I spent the last week swimming and snorkeling with some beautiful little fishies. But, for real, right now, in life, I feel awkward and dumb and just plain stupid.
Anyone else feel that way? It’s like you’re doing just fine and then all of a sudden you’re like WHAT THE HECK AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?!?!??! And it’s like you have an existential crisis.
That’s me at the moment. And I think I know why.
I feel like a fish out of water because that’s really the only way you figure things out. You feel awkward trying new things things. But you have to start somewhere, even when you don’t feel ready. You do new things, and you have to go through the awkward learning curve. You might be really bad at those things too. Like, actually suck at them. But how else are you supposed to grow? And figure out what you are meant to do? And what you love to do?
So here’s a little pep talk to myself, that I’ll share with you:
BE OKAY WITH TRYING SOMETHING NEW.
BE OKAY WITH BEING UNCOMFORTABLE.
BE OKAY WITH THINGS NOT MAKING SENSE.
BE OKAY WITH FEELING LIKE A FISH OUTTA WATER.
STOP OVERTHINKING IT AND JUST MAKE ANOTHER STEP FORWARD.
You aren’t going to be able to “figure it out,” fully, and life is never going to slow down. Things are constantly changing too. There is always more to do, another issue to solve, and honestly, someone out there doing it better than you. But, life isn’t for comparing. You are in your lane and no one else is in that lane.
No one else is you. No one else can bring to the world what you have to give. And if you haven’t found “that thing” yet, you need to just keep trying things and looking for it…it might be closer than you think.
Full disclosure, sometimes I don’t even post things on this Blog because I overthink it. I wonder if what I’m writing even makes sense and worry that this Blog isn’t “pretty enough.” But hey, Rome wasn’t built in a day, right? I bet the Colosseum wasn’t that pretty when they started construction! So, why don’t we give ourselves some grace when we start something new. Building the foundation ain’t pretty, but it’s necessary.
Just START.
And maybe you just need to stop thinking so much about it.
I heard a funny acronym the other day….
KISS.
Keep. It. Simple. Stupid!
How often do I NOT do that….
…..like all the time. I over-complicate everything! And I let my thoughts turn into crazy emotions and I strap myself to the roller coaster of emotion. Why do I do that? Do you do that too? Oh, it’s just me, cool.
I don’t need to feel everything that happens to me. I don’t even need to entertain every thought that runs into my mind either. I’m a feeler, if you haven’t been able to tell yet. It’s one of my greatest strengths, yet also my greatest weaknesses….
KEEP IT SIMPLE, STUPID!
Stop thinking so much about something or why it’s happening….
Just make the next step forward. Just try that new thing. We have no idea what God has for us, but we are promised the things He has for us are abundantly MORE than all we can ask.
So, let’s keep it simple, put ourselves out there, and feel like fish out of water. Amazing things are ahead if we would just get comfortable with being uncomfortable and trust the process.
E
Written: Aug. 19, 2019
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